loving_life

"Loving_life..."

is simply a worn out qoute that is continually reaffirmed by many people past these years...and it is an all-time memory line which keeps on reminding me of the good old days that was long gone.

I lOve life.

...together with all the wonderful things that goes with it

...except PAIN.

I've been through so many things that made me want to give up. But I never did. Painful things that makes me feel lost and unloved..just like what I was feeling right now.

I've always wanted to be a part of his life.and Iam.at least I was.

I've always wanted to love him and be loved by him.and we are inlove.at least we were.

I've always wanted to share with him my whole heart, mind and soul.and I did.But I lost control.

And with all the bearing of this grave feeling..If I would want to love again,I'll never know.

Loving life is beyond my intention,for pain assaulted me this time when I am most vulnerable.

In this world where everything could go wrong, and nothing seems so right..
Loving Life is a mystery,neither you nor I could ever decide.

T_T